public transportation is overrated

open letter to someone who might not read this but it's ok, probably best that you didn't.

so. today there was this couple on the bus that reminded me of us. it wasn't because they were of the asian persuasion, he didn't have long hair that she always hinted maybe, just maybe, he should trim. it had nothing to do with resemblances but more demeanor... it was a nice couple... slight giggling, but not the annoying kind, it was a familiar giggling, something she probably did all the time when he attempted a joke and probably failed because the truth is, yea, she's funnier than him, deal with it..... and right then, that's when I missed you. a lot ... I missed the slight giggling, the walks to the record store and the hating you for taking forever to find that record only to stand in line with it and then decide to get it later.... or even the way you overly stressed and panicked about things, i thought i'd NEVER miss that, but there I was on the 51 bus missing it.

so there you have it, you are missed, and it's not that it's a surprise to me, the shock is that I'm writing this on here and airing my laundry on blogspot, lame, yes, i know ... but it's probably with the hopes that seeing it in writing might make it easier to work with. this will pass, maybe with some music and an episode of the office this will pass, but that's what Im afraid of, that one day a couple will be on that bus and I'll be fine, that i won't miss a thing because it will have reminded me of nothing .

... wow ... could this post be anymore of a downer? let's freshen this up with the observation of the day.

so, on my way to my final I encountered something similar to this:
i don't know you but ... you look like an ass ... a high tech one with a rather large dispoable income, but you get what i mean, you're probably very fun, well-read, you might even give to charity, but you kind of look like an ass ... but truth is, maybe i'm just jealous though.... yea... i am....

rock,
ngan