in all seriousness

I know everyone is busy pushing their own rock up the hill... hehe, i know, I did just say that, bear with me please, this might turn out to be the entry of an ass, but whatever, it's better than the silly pics I keep posting.

I want to talk about the lives of others in comparison to the life you live. Or rather, my life, in contrast to those next to me and 90,000 miles from me. 'to each their own' is such a weakass statement that I use to justify a comfortable living with comfortable and lukewarm goals. I don't know why you're raised to think that fairness is the rule of the land only to be faced with a sad sad realization that fairness, in all its glory, is smoke and mirrors, a fable, an old wives tale... non-existent in the new world. Happiness exists, it's inherent ... something that can happen on its own, even on a rainy day. But fairness is very much something that needs to be propped up. Fairness relies too heavily on an agreement between good people. And good people, it seems, are outnumbered by people confused with this concept of 'to each, their own.'

I don't know. I guess I just think about how much of an impact someone or something can have on your life and I wonder why and how these impacts can be so negative. What drives it? what happened during the phase from fetus to full grown that people do such horrible things to each other? I just don't get it. To each, each other. wow... that sounds terribly corny doesn't it? vomit-inducing even. how do i make that sound less cheesy? I cant. i really mean it... i really think it takes more than one person to get their own sense of anything..

but whatever. this is just a late night ranting that was triggered by me, hanging out with my little brother, thinking that he's awesome and then thinking, he's going to grow up, and he'll be responsible for a lot of good and bad in the world and vice versa, and all at once, i was happy and scared shitless.